Today’s readings were from Exodus ch. 31-32 and Mark 8.
When I read ch. 31 verse 2 where it says “See, I have called by name…” I stopped. God immediately spoke into me. Imagine what it would be like if the president of the United States sends word through the governor of your state that he chose you to work on a super important project. That the president knows your work, and has heard about the kind of person you are, and wants you on their team. I mean how awesome would that be! Now imagine that it’s God doing that! I mean really! God called specific people BY NAME to build the Tabernacle. Those people had to be some kind of special for that to happen. He saw who they were, he saw their hearts and then he gave them MORE. More wisdom, more understanding, more skills. He equipped them more. First came the calling then came the equipping.
I then started thinking about all the people that God has called by name since then. I started to think about me. You see lately I’ve been struggling with what God has called me to do. I know that God has called me to do A LOT of stuff….really though…it’s not even funny but I laugh. I laugh because sometimes it gets so overwhelming that it scares me and I’d rather laugh than be scared.
I remember when I first started seeking my calling as a teen/young adult, I would pray for God to give me wisdom and knowledge, and He did and I had no idea He had done that. Often times people would come to me with problems, not like life problems (although they do that too), but like troubleshooting problems, “how can I fix this” “how can we make this better” and without even knowing what or how, I would have the answers. Seriously, those who knew me before…as a pre-teen and early teen…know that I was kind of an air head. People would laugh at me, not with me…but then I would laugh too cause when you’re not that smart you kinda don’t know they’re laughing at you. 😉 Then all of a sudden things started changing. People started telling me that I had a calling, they started prophesying over me. I got smart!!! People started to notice…they would make comments like “wow, I didn’t know you were smart”. (I know, I should have been offended, but I wasn’t cause I was surprised too!). I walked through the doors of a counseling center, and without having read about any counseling theories, I was a counselor….and a good one according to my colleagues. I started to get a glimpse of what God wanted to do with me…and I got scared. I started backing away. I wasn’t ready. It was too much. I needed to be ready. Then I started seminary and thought that this journey would help me. Which it definitely has! However, now that school is coming to an end…literally 5 weeks away, that anxiousness is back. That scary feeling is back. The wondering if I can do it.
Then today…I remembered I am called by name! He chose me. He sent ministers, pastors, and strangers to tell me that He has chosen me. He has already given me wisdom, skills and through school He has given me knowledge, He has equipped me. While I know that my anxious feelings won’t suddenly go away, I have to be confident in knowing that God is guiding me. He is equipping me as I write this. He is giving me confidence.
I hope that if you’re reading this, you are reminded that God has called you to greatness. Maybe others won’t see the things that God has done or is doing to equip you, but know that you are being worked on by the Master Craftsman. He is molding you into greatness, all you have to do is trust him.
Lord Jesus, I thank you for not only knowing us by name, but calling us by name. By giving us ministries, and passions, and callings for Your work. I thank You for allowing us to be a part of Your body, for the opportunity to be used by You. I ask that You give us courage to do what You have called us to do. Thank you for reminding us that it is You who has called us, and that even though it takes months or years for us to get where we need to be, we can still be patient and grow from that waiting, knowing that you are equipping us. You are above all things, and know all things. We trust in you and know that You will never fail us. Amen