When you can do nothing but pray

Today I walked out of 2 schools feeling utterly powerless.

They were 2 totally different school in 2 totally different communities. The two girls I saw had totally different situations and circumstances. Yet in each of these cases there was a possibility that I would never see these girls again. A possibility that if these girls were to go home tonight, they could possibly die. I don’t mean in an accident, because we all face that possibility daily, but I mean literally murdered or drug overdose or something to that extent. I walked out of the school without that assurance that I will see them next week. 

I drove in silence. 

I did a lot of thinking.

I did a lot of praying.

I did a lot of hoping.

When I got to the office I talked to my colleagues and that helped, but when I got in the car to drive to church…I drove in silence.

I did a lot of thinking.

I did a lot of praying.

I did a lot of hoping.

I also realized something. What if I had not been able to go to those schools? These girls would have never heard that someone understands. They wouldn’t know that 1 more person cared about them. They wouldn’t know that there are people who are willing to help them. People who believe in them.

That’s really important because a couple of months ago there was talks of maybe not being able to go to schools because of funding and time constraints. You see the schools I visit are usually 20 minutes away from my job with no traffic. In what it takes to see 1 client at a school, I could possibly see 2 clients at my office building. Yet these girls have no transportation, no support system at home. They are literally alone. 

These of course are not the only clients we see where we have that concern. Often we see women on a weekly basis that when they walk out of our building we don’t know what’s going to happen. Many of which we never see again. 

We hope that they have had enough information to stay safe, and that they are able to overcome all the obstacles their abusers have placed over them. The only difference between the clients I see in the office and the clients I saw today was the fact that these 2 girls didn’t turn their backs on me…I turned my back on them.

Before leaving one told me “Do you really have to leave? Aren’t you supposed to help me. How are you going to do that? What should I do?” I took a deep breath and said “You’re the one who has to make the decision on what you want to do. I can only give you options and choices, and in the end its you who can decide if you want to make a change.” What  I wanted to tell her was that I would take her home with me, that I would protect her, that I would make sure that she have a normal life just like any other 16 year old. Only I couldn’t tell her that. I couldn’t do anything. I could only promise that I would be there next week. 

All in all I know that had it not been for the Women’s Center and the work we do, I would have never met these 2 incredibly brave strong young women. I know I would have never been able to give them that word of hope. Most of all I would have never been able to pray for them. 

I ask that each of you say a prayer for these two girls. God knows who they are.

I also ask that you consider donating any amount. Each dollar helps in ensuring that young ladies like these are able to access our services. You can donate any amount you wish from $5 – $50. You can follow this link to my donor page —> http://hawc.donordrive.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=donorDrive.participant&participantID=1245 

Thank you!